I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki: The cult hit everyone is talking about

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Will strike a chord with anyone who feels that their public life is at odds with how they really feel inside.' - Red

Jika dibandingkan, sejujurnya aku lebih suka cover buku yang pertama. Begitu pun dengan penataan isi buku dan kualitas kertasnya, aku juga lebih suka yang pertama meskipun memang ada tulisan dengan latar berwarna magenta yang menyakitkan mata sementara di buku ini tidak ada lagi.P.S. I was wondering why this book was so hyped until I did some Nancy Drewing and realized that someone from BTS apparently endorsed this book so I guess it's true what they say: The boy bands will inherit the earth.

Buatku pribadi, buku "sulit" dituntaskan. Bukan karena nggak bagus, tapi sesi tanya-jawab penulis dan psikiater ini bikin perasaan nggak nyaman. Esai yang ditulis penulis ini mungkin sebenarnya dekat banget sama keseharian aku pribadi. Dan perasaan penulis yang dituangkan dalam buku ini mungkin merupakan pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang selalu ada di benakku. perasaan yang aku alami saat membaca buku kedua ini berbeda dengan saat aku membaca buku pertama. Di buku pertama, aku merasa kalau aku gak sendirian dan cerita Baek Se Hee sedikit banyak memberiku harapan untuk mencari pertolongan. Di buku kedua ini, aku malah merasa bahwa dunia itu berat, bahkan bisa dibilang berat sekali untuk dijalani bagi orang-orang yang mengalami masalah mental seperti Baek Se Hee, untuk menarik napas saja rasanya sesak sekali. Buku kedua ini juga menyentuh sisi lain diriku yang awalnya aku pikir gak ada.Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? I wonder about others like me, who seem totally fine on the outside but are rotting on the inside, where the rot is this vague state of being not-fine and not-devastated at the same time.” The author claims to have learned several things - she understood that she can let herself be, that she can let herself feel whatever she feels, that she interprets events in her life depending on her mood. However, I would expect her to learn this and start processing the positive change within the first month of therapy, not after ten years. The fact that her psychiatrist didn’t give her any homework, didn’t explain what they are going to do in their therapy sessions, left me speechless. Oiya, aku suka dengan humor sederhana yang ada di buku ini. Misalnya: "Terima kasih. Satu hal lagi, (Terus bicara walau aku bilang sudah tidak ada lagi yang bisa kukatakan.)" Sungguh jadi warna sendiri ketika membacanya.